Black circles hang from under my eyes
They wrap their sticky fingers around my face
Blurring my vision.
My eyes and the edges of my lips,
Watch the space my feet take
And speak more to the world than I could ever imagine.
I do things I do not wish to do
Only because in my dreams I can handle it,
But I can never stop dreaming.
People only see me in one mirror image,
The other is mat and unreflective,
I sometimes forget it’s there,
And let myself get carried away with my dreams again,
Only to be disappointed,
When the mind hurricanes
Come again and disrupt my peace,
And demolish the foundations I have built.
Anxiety it is called,
In a world I used to believe in,
But in my real fairytale it reigns.
I understand that now
Much more clearly.
They tell me nice things,
But I have lost all sense of faith in humans.
My mind wonders
Days and nights on end
To the very word and twitch of a muscle,
To prove that theory,
But I wish it to be untrue.
To progress with people,
You must first understand said people,
But how can I, when they do not wish to understand me?